There’s always a dark side to fame.

Zayn reveals he struggled with an eating disorder as a member of One Direction. He spilled the beans in his new book ‘Zayn,’ out today.

The ‘Pillowtalk’ singer took time to reflect on the difficult ordeal, still in shock over how thin he became:

“When I look back at images of myself from around November 2014, before the final tour, I can see how ill I was. Something I’ve never talked about in public before, but which I have come to terms with since leaving the band, is that I was suffering from an eating disorder.”

Zayn swears it had nothing to with vanity, but he did admit to going days without eating. We’re shocked!

“It wasn’t as though I had any concerns about my weight or anything like that, I’d just go for days — sometimes two or three days straight — without eating anything at all. It got quite serious, although at the time I didn’t recognize it for what it was.”

Zayn’s life started to get really crazy, and food was the one thing he could control:

“I didn’t feel like I had control over anything else in my life, but food was something I could control, so I did. I had lost so much weight I had become ill. The workload and the pace of life on the road put together with the pressures and strains of everything going on within the band had badly affected my eating habits.”

Thankfully his dark days are behind him — no doubt he has girlfriend Gigi Hadid to thank for that. We’re so glad to see Zayn living his best life!

Obsessed with Zayn? See what he had to say about recording his debut album!

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